Who would I bring from the dead?

RIP, Rest In Peace. People tend to go through an immense trauma when they lose a loved one. It wasn’t so much different from me. Earlier this year, my own grandfather has passed away. Before this experience, I didn’t know what it feels liketo lose someone. It was painful, I felt empty, and I didn’t know what to do. In the funeral, I stood alone thinking about the memories that my grandfather and I had. I regretted many things because I didn’t go to my grandfather’s house that often. I knew that he liked me because he always wanted to give me something when I visit him. If I could bring one person from the dead, it shall be my own grandfather.

The first thing that I’m going to do when I bring my grandfather from the dead is to nicely shake his hand. He loved shaking my hand because my hand looked similar to him. My grandfather suffered for a long period of time, but since, I brought him back; I will not take that in to a consideration. He was a very gentle man, and supported our family to be the way it is right now. He was born on the year 1919, which is way before the World War and the Korean War. He didn’t tell me any story about his past because I didn’t like listening to old stories, but when he comes back life, I will listen to his birth till the end.

My grandfather was a picky person to serve any kinds of food, for the reason that he liked only few things and tried not to eat anything else. I am certainly going to serve him the things that he most liked: tuna sashimi, corn soup, Japanese ramen, and beef steak. It is really rather a weird combination, but at least it is going to be my grandfather’s most favorite feast. After the dinner, I am going to serve him couple glass of wines which he liked to drink before he got sick, and his favorite cheese and other crackers.

Nowadays when I think about my grandfather, he was really a character. He distinguished significantly between the things that he liked and not, He tried to make me eat the same kind of food that he is eating. He didn’t like taking pictures or meeting with any of his friends. He always sat down in his couch and watched his favorite shows. He often went to his company to make a speech. He took me out with his new car to jayooro and told his driver to drive as fast as he could. Many people didn’t like my grandfather because he was stubborn and had to do everything in his own way. However, he was a warm hearted man who cared for him family and his grandson.

110pg of My 400pg Autobiography

If I was to write an autobiography, the 110pg of my 400pg autobiography is definitely going to be the time when I went through the toughest time of my life. The harshest time of my 18 years life, the time I fell in below the surface, and the time where I questioned myself “what is the true meaning of life.” At this significant time of my life, I wasn’t alive or dead. It was the time when I was in comma.

It was actually a really weird experience. Have you ever thought about waking up in a hospital not knowing what happened? Not knowing how long it passed, what date it is, and where you are. I was 15 years old; I was just a freshman in high school. In my freshman year, it is obvious now that I wasn’t thinking clear enough because I bought a motorcycle with my allowance. In Korea, motorcycle was a huge trend for high school students because of the fact that girls found you more attractive with a motorcycle. Obviously I wanted be a part of the boys who own a motorcycle. Not too long after I got use to riding motorcycle, I got into a car crash. It was clearly not my fault because the car was going too fast and ignored the signal.

If you look at the Korean typical drama, the drama shows how people who get into an accident in slow motion. This was the exactly same thing that happened to me that night. After I got into a crash, sadly, I don’t remember a single thing afterward. When I woke up, it felt like I was out for few minutes or maybe second. However, I realized that something was wrong with my body because I couldn’t move my fingers.

I didn’t speak for while after I woke up not because I didn’t want to, but because I couldn’t. My dad came in shortly and he bursts into a cry. I didn’t know what to do well, I couldn’t do anything. Few minutes later, I spoke to him. “What happened?” My dad explained to me about my accident, and I slowly remembered the night. However, I was amazed to hear his next word. “Son, you have been sleeping for months.” To me, it felt like few minutes, but in the real life time, it was more than a month. I missed school, I missed my girlfriend’s birthday, and possibly 8 episodes of the drama LOST. My precious time was missing. I couldn’t dare look at motorcycle nor tried to ride a motorcycle again.

Man's Best Friend

“Man’s best friend is a car.” Man always has his own fantasy of driving a car. Car became one of the most crucial aspects of man because it is a MUST HAVE item. It is one of the many aspects that woman seeks in a man. “What kind of car does he drive?” it’s the second most famous question that woman ask in a date. The first question that woman asks is of course is a JOB. However, despite the fact that car is an important factor in man’s life; man has a great fantasy for driving. Especially for his first car, man imagines himself driving the car.

It wasn’t that different for me. I have been waiting for my car to arrive for at least a month. Since, it is my first car, the bigger the fantasy it is. My first car is going to be BMW 325i. While I was waiting for it to come, I did a little research of it. The car that I’m suppose to get has a really variety of aspects. It has a great stroke of 6-cyllinder with near 300 horse powers. It has comfort access with start stop button and keyless entry. The color of the car is Sparkling graphite with interior color of black. I mean really it is not an exaggeration to say that it is a perfect car to have as a first car.

The car was suppose to be here at least 3 weeks ago, and the company that was suppose to send the car happens to found a problem with my car. The company informed me that I have to wait at least 2 more weeks to receive my car in a perfect condition. The company is keep telling me that you have to wait 2 more weeks and it is not weird for me to get mad. However, it is my first car and the fantasy is getting bigger as the car is arriving late

Father

Probably it was my 3^rd time watching my dad getting married. I was raised by my father unlike most of the kids. When I was very young, my parent got divorced for some reason. I’m not saying that I don’t have any memory with my mom because I certainly remember some. It was hard for me to live without my mom, especially when I was in my elementary years. In elementary, it is not an exaggeration to say that most of the events require mother. I still remember one of my teachers sitting with me for the mother’s day. I hated when people looked at me with sympathy because I was actually used to not having a mother. Maybe I was too young to understand the whole situation because I didn’t know the concept of divorce.

When I was in middle school, my father got married to another woman. I was terrified to see a stranger coming to my house to live and sleep with my dad. When my dad first notified me that he’s getting remarried, I packed my stuff and left the house instantly. I slept in what Koreans call jjimjilbang, a hot spring with restaurants and a place to sleep. It was a perfect place for me to hide because you don’t need any money to eat and sleep. All the costs were saved in to your key. However, after few days, police came in and caught me because the employers thought or knew that I was alone and spent more than 3 days without paying.

My father came in and took me out of custody. He wasn’t mad at me because he understood me. He knew that I still missed my mother and hoped that she would come back someday. He got married after few weeks later, and I was still mad at him. If I think about it now; I understand him perfectly. I know that man can’t live without woman for a long period of time. He lived alone for many years and raised me. I should have tried to understand him more because I still regret my action.